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Name: Sean C.
DOB: 19/02
Primary School: Rosyth School (Grad in 2003)
Secondary School: Deyi Secondary School (Grad in 2007)
Hometown: Ang Mo Kio, Singapore



Happy With What I Have...





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[] sleepless night []

wahs... it has been a long time
ever since i have this type of
nights... haha...

ya loh last nite did not get to sleep at all
... hmm... think of her and the prob loh..
dunno how to solve... she say boring... how?
god... help me.... m i fated to be with her?
give me a sign.... dun hurt me lord!

haiz... sad case i dun even feel tired now
loh... today still went to play bball but nt tired!
how? it is true when u got a relationship prob u can't sleep
the whole night... and keep thinking of it loh

tml gg to catch fanstic 4 ba....
watching with dear... but dunno if she
like or nt... haiz... always nvr tell me how she
feel 1... sad case loh... then
i still feel the gap between us some time...
ok ok la... i try to go and sleep la...
chow!

[] Suffering... []

today.... had science test... haiz
damn worried.... coz dear weak in this subject...
haiz... hope she can get 22 and above...
it is upon 30 la...

for me... worried also la...
hope to get full marks
coz other ppl.... got also...
and it is rather easy...
ya loh.... then today also got maths test...
haha... ya... damn diffucult
but hope to pull trough la...
ya... haha... that was my day in school....

haha.... then come afternoon....
wahs... every1 all peng say us loh...
haiz... left me dear and jw...
haiz.... they waited for me till 5.30 loh
then jw left... but dear waited for me till training ends...
sian... feel so guilty... haha!

today bball training was hell loh....
wahs... we ran 4 times suisides....
then we did... how to say...
we will carry a person on our neck...
then we are suppose to do half suqat loh
so damn tiring...
and my person so happen to be
HONG KWANG!
siao... he so damn heavy loh...
then later switch to ah b....
then we did crunches...

sian we did 2 sets of this....
haha! dying man... then we did lay up loh...
i think 20 times plus loh...
run till leg numb...haiz...
after taining... went to bathe then went to KFC to eat
with dear loh... wahs she cope me drinks loh!
drink so much... haha but i dun mind... i rather she eat
my stuff then dun eat...
i will feel guilty de dear! so eat!
ok ? haha... then went to wait for bus...
missed 3 bus loh ... coz she 1 2 wait with me!
i m so touched loh! haha... so happy also!
hmm... tromm meeting her also... then go for sch concert loh...
yup! thats all le... ok ok now got to go le
dear calling... bye!

[] Chinese test []

today, i recieve back my chinese spelling
haha... 10 upon 10!
so happy! haha... ya loh... then today also
got chinese test... sian study like siao for it loh.
haha but at least i did not study for nothing...
dear ask me to get 60 and above...
and this test is upon 90... so ya loh
i got confident la...

ok ok today also got track...
haha... thought running to delgro... but did not la...
haha... played in school... tromm
bball got dunno wad selection la...
haha ... juz go loh... hmm...

ok la thats all la... got to go... chow!

haha long time never take pic together le! haha at last got chance 

me and dear on the steps 

me and dear... up close... Best pic 

me and dear... up close... 2nd pic 

me and dear... up close...3rd pic 

me and dear... making jio bin face 

cindy , shawna and jacklyn 

the boys in track 

Group photo! 

better pic....of myself 

me in mrt... dunno wad i m doin... 

advertising for milo! 

Smile zhi rong... 

[] Happy... true happiness []

haha today... i got true happiness! haha....
i hope she got also la... haiz....
she look so unhappy today...
haiz... but i m happy

but i can be 100% when she is not...
haiz...
NEways... we did lots of things today...
we lean on my shoulders! haha... that 1 i
happy liao... haha!.
another thing is that i learnt my chinese spelling!

then today got spelling test and i know all...
haha,... tromm i got me chinese test...
dear 1 me to get 60 and above! haha so must get that!
haha ok o i got to go learn le! chow!

[] A heart... Broken into a million pieces... sobs! []



-on the bus-
-344-
-maris-
-bball match-
-finals-

[] Lost to lan jio sch! []

haiz... hmm... today huh....
last match for round 2... haha... with nan qiao loh

wahs... we lost loh... actually can win 1...
but then coach dun 1 2 let us play...
let all the sec 1 play loh!
wahs... damn angry! haiz....
can wiin 1 leh...
haiz... hmm.... then so damn not happy loh!

haiz... after that we went to eat... samr thing loh...
wahs now damn stress... haiz....
dunno which 1 2 drop... bball, track or nana...
nana and trck is impossible for me to drop
so bball but i really like
playing the sport loh!

so i have decided to continue....
but dear... i will try me best to give u all the time i have ok?
promised de!

hmm... 100th day coming le
still have not prepared the present! wahs... die man!
how? haha!
i know wad to get le ... but not sure she 1 anot!
haiz....
sian man.... wah lao!

ok ok i got to go le...
tromm gg for the PHS funfair...
hope it will be nice!

[] My Basket ball journy ends today! []

haiz.... happy la! coz the prob settle le!
but then.... haiz.... got another prob la....

we played against woodlands ring today...
guess wad... we lost la... sian!
suppose to win leh! y?!
refree buyers leh!

haiz... y? y did this happen? plz....
haiz... so sad loh... so many ppl cried...
even hk loh!
but then today i nvr cry la...
but damn sad! hiaz...
then after that went back to sch...
then went to eat...

now.... at chuan hus... posting. haiz... com still down!

[] How ... Should i ask for it? Tell me! []

Ok.... Today i dunno how to get on with life....
hmm... today we played against PHS!

u guess leh? hmm.... ok la....
every champ goes through defeat...
haiz.... we lost la... haha!
ya la so damn sad... cried in the toilet!
wahs... fucked up man... chased so much....
almost win leh! sian!

damn sad... the another thing is that...
fiona... went up the bus.... waited for her to sit with me...
then never sit... Fucked up loh! haiz.... dunno why... and i dun want to know!
wah lao damn angry loh! feel like crying man! :(

then nvm loh... after that, went to eat with daddy.... they still
never tok loh... dunno wad's wrong with their mouth today loh!
wahs lao!.... sian... then went off loh.... never see her off....
dunno wad to do tromm....

then sat along in the bus... thought of alot of thing....
haiz... thought... abt US.... even thought of ..... u know
oso thought abt the game! .... damn saddded loh

now at yee chuan hus!
fucked up loh! haha! com spoilt...

but here... forgot all abt her haha!
talked all abt the coaches and stuff! haha
hmm.... ya la... thats abt all la...

o ya... cut hair also!

[] Happy Like .... Haha dunno how to explain! []

now at Yee chuan hus... sian.... internet down... so in his hus loh...
ppl... NEthing call me la... ok?

today as normal la... lost touch with work! haha
let class at 11.... haha! For basketball! haha
today we went again Zhong Zhen Branch!

we won la... 59 - 50 ... but ...
haiz coach .... scold la... haiz... sad man!
haha! say we never play properly...
we not on form la...
never "ping!"
haha.... then after that we went central to eat
KFC! .... haha then black out loh... haha... 3 times leh...
i think we sway man!

but i most happy becoz....
today manage to hold her hands! haha
cool rite?!

haha... wahs... so happy man!
hope she feel the same la...

tromm we playing against PHS!
haha... clare's sch...
haha... pressure la...
i m injured at my ankle, pelvis
and now my back! haha!
tromm dear not going... so can fall for all i 1!
haha.... coz she got choir!

sian! hope to play well la...
ok ok i got to go le... love ya!

[] the truth []

So here we areWe are alone
There's weight on your mindI wanna know
The truthIf this is how you feel
Say it to meIf this was ever real

[Chorus:]I want the truthFrom you
Give me the truthEven if it hurts me
I want the truthFrom you
Give me the truthEven if it hurts meI want the truth
So this is youYou talking to me
You found a million ways to let me down
So I'm not hurt when you're not around
I was blindBut now I seeThis is how you feelSay it to me
If this was ever real



[Chorus]

I know that this will break me
I know that this might make me cry
You gotta say what's on your mind, on your mind
I know that this will hurt me
And break my heart and soul inside
But I don't wanna live this life
[Chorus]
I don't care no more, no
Just give me the truth
Give me the truth
Cuz I don't care no more
Give me the truth
Cuz I don't care no more, no
Just give me the truth
Give me the truth
Give me the truth
Give me the truth
Give me the truth
Cuz I don't care no more, no

haha.... me in the doc room! pain sia! 

look at my face... jio bin rite? haha... so pain! 

[] boring day... sian... []

today woke up at 12...
so early! haha... then so tired!
went to eat with me parents loh...
my real parents not ah b they all
then.... went to central 7-11 to eat,
now with my 3rd parents... crosby they all
met dear and ah ma later... coz the late
as usual la.... haiz...

then went to raidders...
waited like siao... then at last no time so nvr play lan!
haiz... sian! then went to a sports link then also so sian!
so at last we went home! then before we went home...
see crosby and mushroom so loving
haha jealous.... but relax.... we will make it there 1 day!
but not so soon la...
haha! then

ppl hu 1 2 know abt my injury!
i m fine... getting better and ppl hu had asked me
juz 1 2 tell u all thanx!

ok la got to go le... bb!

[] The track journy ends today! []

hiaz.... nvr qualify for finals la today!
sian!... damn sadded man!
haha.... but i broke my both PB! haha...
haha.... my 400m today i came in 5th in my heats!
i did a 58.31! haha my last timing was 58.82!
15th fastest la... but still sadded la...
then in the call room ... so damn funny loh
everyone was like joking abt milo!
haha
then we even challenge each other after the race loh...
i drank 10 cups! haha... cool?
haha...

after my race... went to mac to
eat mac chicken... $2 only!
haha!
cool rite? hmm.... tehn went back slept
for a wile only la... then went to do warm up!
wah lao.... sian loh... my 200m! got last in my semi
but! i came in 19th... haha! haha.... wahs i was so touched today loh
my whole team ran frm the mrt station back juz to see mr run my 200m!
haha... so happy loh! even though dear did not come... my fwens r still there!
haha... i was so touched loh! but i let them down! came in last in my
semi! ... sobs sobs... sorry guys! will try harder next time

after my race... went to see the b girl and c girls ran 800m!
none came in last! so proud of them! haha
then 4x400m B boys... they did ok la...
also did not come in last!
but the most irrating thing is that yi cheng did a 57 for
400m! wahs... broke my PB!
sadded man... nvm next year... 55s! haha!
ok ok my goal! ... hmm after that went back to AMK
ate loh... eat with mei mei , cindy and shawna.... yup!
tok alot... so happie! then went back home!
haiz... so tired today but was fulfiling! haha....
gg back to sch tromm... sian!

tromm still got bball... wahs i will die man!
really! haha... think will faint... haha....
ok ok i go sleep le... chow!

[] Qualyfied again for 400m! []

wahs sian la... today ran 400m loh... ran like siao!
did a 58.82 seconds...
than i m suprised that i qualified loh!
haha! happy? NO! haha... coz
i hate running 400m! but wad to do?
got to run!

today i came in 3rd in my heats!
haha... but only got 5 person running la...
but it was a dtrong heat!
haha.... but before i run i lost the
"feeling" u know wad i m toking abt?
the Feeling... ppl hu runs u should know la...
haha! ya loh... then still suprised that i still can get 17th
fastest... haha! crazy rite? haha!

ok ... tromm my 400m semi at 9.45!
haha.... sian loh.... dun 1 2 run!
haha... then afternoon got my
200m semi! haha... sian! haha....
but dear not coming to see.... haiz...
sadded loh... but wad to do? force her to come
then she come oso no meaning... sian!
haiz... but nvm... still got my sis and my team to support me! haha!
haha... so dun need her la! :(

ok ok i going to sleep early le... haha tromm will be dead... both semi
will come in last de...
wait for my bad news ok? chow chow ppl!

[] 200m Semis here i come! []

haiz... sian la... y did i qulify?
coz tromm i still have to run 400ms!
i dun 1 to run tromm!
sian loh... sobs... will get last le... i m injured like
siao loh! haiz... pelvis sprain came back!

so tromm my 400m like stride loh...
last la i think .... i dun care le la...
but hope ppl will not laugh at me la... haha!

ok ok btw i ran in heat 6 lane 2 today...
ran at abt 4.15 la... haha... dun have a good start!
haha... but so wad... still got 2nd and i did qualify! haha

hmm.... now missing alot of training....
i mean bball de la... then round 2 coming le
hope that i dun screw anything up loh...
haha! ok ok la... now dear.... haiz.... nt spending much time with her le
i think she also got not much time for me oso!
i guess she busy ba.... but hope can be closer loh...
like last time... hint* hint*!

haiz... ok ok i got to go le... sleep soon! after tt toking to dear!
nite ntite ppl.... see for results tromm!

[] Lan crazy! []

wahs... help me! now my ah ma cazy over lan le!
haha.... now every 2 week once go play lan....
haha... so starting frm this week! haha
ok ok.... today will not post too long la...

[] 200M tml! []

haha... tromm my 200m!
so long loh the heats.
i m in heat 6 lane 4.... haha
abt 4.15 la my race but then... haha!
u know la... can leave sch at 10.40!
cool rite?
but dear can come la... sian she got
choir!... haha but ... nvm
then can't see her much tromm oso!

but i will try my best la... bring glory for u guys la...
haha.... wait for good news ok? haha! chow! love ya dear!

wahs... em and dear... pic from long time agoe... haha we look funny....  

[] Julia mei mei Birthday! []

today, went to church like normal loh...
sian... cat class... wake up so early loh...
haha then... after cat class
rushed down for tuition

today maths teacher nvr come... so
releave teacher loh
sian... fuck up teacher....

then after tuition
met. juit wen, yh, adn wen qi!
haha... ya loh... 1st
as usual went to play lan loh
now the girls crazy abt lan loh... sian! haha
then after playing lan... we walk to accard
then i played para para.... crazy loh
can get addicted de loh... haha!

haha... then went to eat soul gardens loh
haha so fun! haha...
so funny loh... thay all mixed the food... then taste like shit!
haha... then the birthday girl came....
we went to eat together loh....

haha.... then after tt, we sang birthday song and slam the cake
on her face!@ haha... yup! hope she felt happy loh... haha!
yup! ... sian la.... after tt went to 350 play bballl loh

then after playinf send wen qi to the bus stop then went home...
haha... so now using com loh... ok ok i got to go le! chow!

[] daddy and mummy 2nd month! []

1st, i will 1 2 wish me parents happy 2nd month!

haha.... cool sia they alll so romantic... ok i will come to
that later.... tell u wad i did today 1st

hmm... woke up so early... 8!
went for bball trining....
met at hk hus at 9... coz coach 1 2 train us de mah!
haha... then we went to woodbridge...
yes i m not jk!

WOODBRIDGE!
haha... cool place...
got a bball court there... then
ya la... train there loh... cool!
haha... hmm... next time will train there le...
haha! ya la...
then... sian la... train like siao then some time will hear
ppl screaming de... haha scary la... but it is ok la...

after training went to eat at houngang point
ate at the food court... then
went back to central with .... i dunno how to spell his name la...
sorry! haha... ko hock i guess.... haha...

then waited like siao for juit wen and nana to come... then
went to play lan...
we went to raidders de... but when we waiting, the com black out...
wahs... terror man!
haha.... then went out loh... dun 1 2 play le... then
hmm... wanted to go bishan buy dacia persent de
but when we went to the train station, we saw daddy and mummy
then they wanted to go play lan...
sian.... i no mood le loh...
so went home sleep then went for church...

now at home la... tromm mei mei birthday le....
can go out again! haha... good rite? haha...
ya la... got to go le la.... bye!!

[] Group Champion []

haha... so happy for the basketball boys today!
we played against maris...
haha we won loh
by 1 point
so pathatic!
let me tell u wad happen!

we started... 1st quater
leading
then 2nd quater....
we were still leading loh...
but the points were so close la...
haiz.... always like 1 or 2 points away de...
sian!
then the 3rd quater then i foul out...
so angry loh! sian man!
then only can watch
then were trailing at last .... then we so crazy loh
then last quater

wah lao! can die man!
so close and so little time left loh
then we chase 4 points in 27 seconds!
means we can draw loh...

last 5s we draw loh.
then ball was in oue posation
we shot but missed
so went into extra time
5 mins only
... all of us was like so nervous
but we played very well la... haha!
so in the end.... in the last 26s of the extention
we were trailing 4 to 3
then we got foul
then free throiw....
both balls went in! haha
so we were leading by 1 point!

in the end we won! haha!
but then we still got scoldin
coz we could win 1.
then we went to seragoon to swin

after swimming we went to eat then went home....
but we went to eat with yee chuan suppose
to b our opponent! haha!
ya la... good fwen la... then changed jersy
wore maris 15
haha.... nice leh... but small! haha!
then keep on prasing each other...
luckly we did not met on the court coz...
u know... our friendship is still as hard as gold!
haha! ya la... thats abt it la...

tromm still got training
sian! at 9 some more! haha

[] good news []

today my track team
the b girls went in to semi for 4x100m!
so happy loh... haha! all the way guys!
but sad news...
boys did not make it for 4x100m
missed by 1.5s! haiz....
try next year ba....

[] yesterday.... nvr blog []

sorri guys my second month more inportant
tt's why blog 1st
hmm... now i
damn tired...

haha... hmmm let me think....
i know seen her then i was so happy
coz 3 days nvr see her...
then she really changed loh...
treat me like normal le... haha!
then i m so happy loh! yup!

hmm... spent almost the whole day with her loh...
then reach home so late... so i m very tired loh... yup!
ok ok i pen off le... tired la...
chow!

[] Fever []

haiz... woke up this morning...
got temp... did not go for track...
did not tell der...

dear... u read le dun angry ok?
coz nvr tell u coz it was so early in the morning... then
the temp was not tt bad... so did not tell u!

haiz.. hope chia will nt say wad to me la... coz i nvr go...
then i no mc oso! haiz...

then i went back to sleep till abt 11 like tt
woke up... temp went down... but stil ...
hot... haha!

then went to meet the bball boys at sch... went out to eat...
haiz... no more $$ le... sobs...
then, haiz... wad els? hmm...

[] lan gamming []

haiz... i met... juit wen , daddy and mummy, blackie, yee chuan (tu di)
yup.. we play lan at raidders for an hour...
wahs 2.20 leh..
so ex! haha....
but then in cs... haha top frak - 42! haha in awp map! haha!
then dedust... team with jw! haha...
we make a good team man! haha... always win de!
haha!

ya la...
then wen to libaryafter tt...
the girls went to retun books...
then went to cheng san cc play ball...
then went back to see my student care loh... haha!
yup... tok to the teacher then... all the memories came back le loh
haha miss those days man!

haha! then... 3 days nvr see dear le... sad? abit la... but some time... like tt de la...
so i m ok la... haha!
hmm.... tt's all for today la... chow!

haiz... nt tt i 1 2 say the photographer la... but ... u can see rite? haha... u judge la... haha! and this is taken in art class... haha! yup! ... o ya btw this is crosby and wen qi! haha! 

haha like the saying goes... son will always be taller then mother! haha! 

hey joanna... u 1 pic of me and my dear rite? haha ... nah... here all got le... 

haiz... last pic i think too tall le... then dear not tt good looking so... haha! go lower loh... 

me and me mother number 1... haha!  

this is our class tee... nice rite? haha...  

[] the hardest thing i had to say! []

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.
Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me. I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore. Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together. One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written. The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart. If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all.

me, pei sheng, and wei qi! the last pic we took before we change place... sobs... but now sitting with wen qi... but peisheng... no more liao... sobs! 

wahs... this is the real couple... but no happy ending leh... A? wait! they have not even stared! haha... sadded sia 

wahs... so loving... OPPS! haha jk jk... this 1 not me dear... my dear is nana! haha and she looks better... i nvr say jia qi is ugly ok! haha